I’m sitting here late at night somehow I can’t get any sleep

I’ve got a thousand [bad word] through my head

I’m switching on [bad word] to pass the time and free my mind

But these thoughts won’t go will leave me restless

I can’t pretend it’s not affecting me but I just can’t get a single tear

And now your names are all engraved on these white stone graves

Was it your sense of family to constantly keep ignoring me ?

Anger and misunderstanding prevail on this pain

You never wasted a few thoughts ink and a stamp on a letter

Thousands miles away strangers for so many years 

a make believe of distance to justify your silence

Not even a single pic as a reminder in my mind all I had

Was blurry faces distant memories I could hardly remember

You never wasted a few thoughts ink and a stamp on a letter

I’m sorry that I’m not feeling guilty 

can anyone tell me why should I be?