Beautiful garden, where have you gone? 
My self delusions are leaving me in the storm 
Taking for granted all the goodness that I've found 
Somewhere I lost all, the control came crashing down 

And I pray for forgiveness 
Look for the answers 
Cause it's hard 
For me to pretend 
Look to my mother 
Call to the captain 
Can't you see 
This state that I'm in 
No one would notice 
Nobody noticed 
Cause it's me where it begins 

Beautiful morning, please don't wake me from my sleep 
I need [bad word] to regain my sanity 
I don't want to feel this crazy
I don't want to feel this guarded 
Shattered in a million pieces 
I'm so broken hearted 
No where left [bad word] 
No where left to go 
So I hope 

I pray for forgiveness 
Look for the answers 
Cause it's hard for me to pretend 
Look to my mother 
Call to the captain 
Can't you see 
This state that I'm in? 
And no one would notice 
Nobody noticed 
That it's me, where it begins 
And I pray for forgiveness within 

I swear that everyday I feel like my mind is haunting me 
I think of every little stupid mistake that has been made 
This time I don't have the strength to gather myself 
I'm falling to pieces 

And I pray for forgiveness 
Look for the answer 
Cause it's hard for me to pretend 
Look to my mother 
Call to the captain 
Can't you see 
This state that I'm in 
Pray for forgiveness 
Looking for justice 
Searching for answers 
Call to my mother 
Pray for forgiveness 
Breaking the silence 

Nobody knows it, nobody noticed 
That it's me where it begins