Alone In December

You always amazed me
But thats the past
I kept silent and it rained for days
My inside were drenched
But I guess that's the part of growing up
I never wanted to learn
And I grew into the man
That you never knew
But I wouldn't be this way
If it wasn't for you
100 thank you's
It this is love
Fairy tales never came [bad word] 
Judies are black in full bloom
And I died in the womb
Take it back, all that's gone
It's all still there like you left it
December stayed the same
Nothing ever changed but you
Every little dream covered in dents
Love can't fly tonight
Couples will rest, I'll be sleepless
So cry yourself to sleep
This is about broken hearts
This is about me
Bending again for nothing
 [bad word] to you but pain awaits
 [bad word] home
But I'll be late
No deeper than imagination can be
Sight with nothing to see
What's faith if I can't believe
It's everything
cure, but I make it a disease

God take me because I hate me