[bad word] to me once in my sleep 
And free me from the never-ending silent scream 
Everywhere, I see you everywhere 
Now that you’re gone there’s silence stayed

Why did you leave me with this killing silence? 
Why did you leave me with this screaming silence? 
I see your shadow next to me 
Silence... 
But all that's gone can not be real 
Silence's swallows me; it burns like flame on my skin 
There is the shame deep inside 
I know it'll never, never leave

Through the blame I bear inside 
So many years I've prayed for chance to say goodbye 
Couldn’t stay, I know you couldn’t stay 
And I understand your loneliness today

...Why can't I let it go? 
The memories are just the painful echo of the things we can’t redo 
I meet you in my dreams over and over again 
But morning always brings [bad word] of hope…