"What I Believe"

Lies and deceiving is what i'm believing
Up to my knees so hared to breathe 
It helps that you aren't there
Can't figure out what's the right thing for me
Guess I'll have to wait and see

So understanding but so far from the [bad word] It's what I have to live with
It's not all I wanted to be 
It's not all I wanted to see
I can't keep on leading
I've left what I'm leaving
Guess that's just what I believe

Consciously taking and overly faking
I can't believe all the things that you're saying
Seems all so simple it's all up to you
Time after time
You lost what you couldn't find

It's what you could
It's only what you could
Don't take not what you could
But I know what's up