If this is [bad word] 
I thought then
What will I think?
Will I stay?
But rather I would get away
I'm scared that, I won't find a thing
And afraid I'll turn out to be alone
But I

I have to learn
Have to try
Have to [bad word] I have to cry
Have to see
Have to know
That I can be myself

If this is [bad word] 
I thought then
What will I think?
Will I stay?
Or rather I would get away
I'm scared that, I won't find a thing
And afraid I'll turn out to be alone

Turn up the music music (x12)

I see it all I'm sure but
Do I know what's right?
Thought I knew
But it turned out the other way
I am scared that, I won't find a thing
And afraid I'll turn out to be alone
But I

I have to learn
Have to try
Have to [bad word] I have to cry
Have to see
Have to know
That I can be myself

If this is [bad word] 
I thought then
What will I think?
Will I stay?
Or rather I would get away
I'm scared that, I won't find a thing
And afraid I'll turn out to be alone