[bad word] Alive"

I’d die to breath You in
feel You beneath my skin
Let go of all I’ve been just spinning around
Hold on to all You are
trade my life for these scars
All just to see how far I’d make it this time [bad word] alive, I...
 [bad word] ]
I’m just spinning around
never knowing
Why I haven’t been found
this’ll be the
Last time I’ll have to hide
Living for the moment
when [bad word] alive

You found me in the deep
begging my lungs to breath
You know I’m far too weak to make it alone  [bad word] alive, I...
 [bad word] 

It’s over, it’s over, wont go back this time
It’s over, it’s over, it’s over cause
I’m done spinning around
never knowing
Why I haven’t been found
this’ll be the
Last time I’ll have to hide
Living for the moment
when I, when [bad word] alive