What is this mess I've shaped and [bad word] for myself? 
This is my desperation and my everything. 
For the past 4 years all I've seen in my reflection is this person. 
Or a failure staring back at me. 
But there's nothing I can do and no one wants to help me. 
How am I supposed to change my ways or to know what is right or wrong. 
This is all my fault and I will pay the price. 
Maybe there is another savior to make up for my mistakes 
So god if you can hear me, give me one more chance to prove 
That I'm not just another failure. That I'm not just a waste of space. 
I want to make people happy and keep a smile on my face. 
But to do this I am going to need your help for I know I'm alone in this. 
I know I'm so alone. I feel so alone. 
At least there is one more thing that I need to get off my chest. 
And I mean it when I say that this ones from the heart. 
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