"What's Good For Me"

I ain't no queen of hearts, I go through stages
I fall in love [bad word] it
yeah, you know the feeling
without much hope just blind ambition
pretending that there's nothing missing
I always kept believing that...
more, I thought if I had more I wouldn't get so bored
but everything just left me empty
love walking in and out of my door
wasn't good enough no more
when I don't [bad word] myself life really sucks and...
 [bad word] ]
first time I did it but I didn't do it
last time, that's when I really blew it
this time I'm gonna do it different 'cause I know, I know, I know...
if I put everything I have into it
eventually I'm gonna get what's good for me

I'm just trying to be creative
but everyone's so opinionated
wanna tell me what I'm feeling
'cause one man's junks another's treasure
when it's done it's hard to measure or keep on believing that...
more, if only I had more, I wouldn't get so bored
but I know it's gonna leave me empty
life, walking in and out of my door wasn't good enough no more
when I don't [bad word] myself I'm gonna get stuck and...
 [bad word] 

'cause I don't want to live my life wondering if only I would've, I should've, I could've...
but I didn't 'cause I only blame myself again...

first time I thought it but I didn't do it
last time, that's when I really blew it
so this time, this time, this time...
if I put everything I have into it
eventually I'm gonna get what's good for me
 [bad word] 
 [bad word] fade until end]