I'm Alone in the darkness 
Now, I don't know what it was I thought I'd find 
The cuts are getting deeper but still it won't bleed 
I'm lost within this: disbelieve 
Confusion... 
...still my hatred is clear, 
When the pain is gone there will be nothing to fear 
Choking on life but still I don't care 

I'm a nuclear reaction 
of devastation 
I'm At war with myself 
Ripping the life right out of me 

I'm losing my grip 
My fear turns into anger 
I'm losing my grip 
Realize I'm not one of the dead 

No use [bad word] away, demolition is here 
As [bad word] to an end my self hate takes control 
From myself, within myself 
My demons overtake my soul 
Kill me now, let me go 
The darkness will follow where ever I will go 

I'm losing my grip 
My fear turns into anger 
I'm losing my grip 
Realize I'm not one of the dead 

Feel the life force leaving me 
Body numb, I cannot feel 
(Mortality) 
Tear apart my rotting senses 
No longer alive 

Drowning in quicksand 
I have no choice but to swallow and drown 
Time is slowing down there is no air to breath 
I'm lost within myself 
...Confusion: 
Nothing's clouding my mind 
When the pain is gone there will be nothing to fear 
choking on life but still I don't care 

I'm self mutilation 
devastation 
I'm at war with myself... 

I'm losing my grip 
My fear turns into anger 
I'm losing my grip 
Realize I'm not one of the dead 
................not one the dead!