Wish I was too dead to cry
My self affiction fades
Stones to tgrow at my creator
Masochists to which I cater

You don`t need to bother
I don`t need to be
I`ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I won`t let go till it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care 
If indeed I cared at all
Never  had a voice to protest 
So you fed me [bad word] to digest

I wish I had a reason 
My flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don`t need to bother
I don`t need to be
I`ll keep slipping farther
Once I hold on I won`t let go till it bleeds

Wish I`d died instead of lived
zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with it`s memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries

And  You don`t need to bother
I don`t need to be
I`ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on  I`ll never live down my deceit