I hurt myself today to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain the only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole the old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away but I remember everything

What have I [bad word]  My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all My empire of dirt
I will let you down I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns upon my liars chair
Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time the feeling disappears
You are someone else I am still right here

What have I [bad word]  My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all My empire of dirt
I will let you down I will make you hurt
If I could start again million miles away
I would keep myself I would find a way