There are things I'll never understand, there are times I almost leave, pretend the life I had was just a dream, some days it [bad word] kills me, it's getting harder to go through life, all the thoughts that haunt my head, all the ones that just leave me restless, just let me be, I'm so [bad word] out, making everything worse than it needs to be, I'm always finding the downside of everything, I won't live in shame, can't live this way, and I'll be the first to say I know I'm going insane, I've been just getting by day by day, watching everything go, the things that I [bad word] to a close, every day I'm awake it's the same thing, every wall is the same, it's the same place, I'm living the life that I had always feared, [bad word] the chances and the hopes that I held dear, but today things change, I've beaten myself up far to many times, I've let my life pass me by for too long, I let my life pass me by, I won't live in shame can't live this way, and I'll be the first to say I know I'm going insane, There are things I'll never understand, there are times I almost leave, pretend the life I had was just a dream, some days it [bad word] kills me, it's getting harder to go through life, all the thoughts that haunt my head, all the ones that just leave me restless, I let my life pass me by