secret so sorry that i forgot
secret secret we're all bound to forget.
i was worried i might [bad word] to you.
so worried that i was.
it's a lie to serve the [bad word] 
and i'm still guilty.
i missed. so be it.

everywhere everything you ever touched.
cutting in won't do it. there's nothing to it.
you were sorry that i was alone
so sorry that [bad word] away.
putting it on me but you already knew it.
it never meant a thing.
so be it.

i can't understand this at all.
i can't pronounce this at all.

these are different matters
these are uncertain feelings
they should never be discussed here
so keep it to yourself