I'm living in this world without you watching my own life pass me by.
I'm living in this world without you being a bystander to my own life.

I'm on the outside, trying to look in.
I need to feel connected or else I'm going to lose it.
I'm waiting for my destiny to manifest in front of me.
I'm waiting for my destiny to manifest in front of me.

The one thing I was sure of...
The one thing I knew...
The only thing I thought I had...
Well, I... Well, I [bad word] blew.

The one thing I was sure of...
The one thing I knew...
The only thing I thought I had...
I [bad word] blew.
I [bad word] blew.

I'm showering at two in the morning
So no one can see me clean the filth I [bad word] to be.
How can I focus on tomorrow when I can't live today?

I wanted hope.
I wanted change.
The stars have fallen from the sky.

I wanted hope.
I wanted change.
But now I'm ready to die.

 I'm ready to die.

You can't kill someone who's already dead.
You can't even begin to understand the thoughts in my head.
I beat myself over and over again about nothing,
Just sensing reality is dead.

Reality is dead.

I hate myself more than you ever can.
And I'll hate myself until the very end.

I lost my heart the day the world went cold.
The sun doesn't rise to heat this godforsaken earth.

An image of you appeared as I began to cry.
An image of you appeared as I slowly died.
Cynical of this world, pessimistic on a whole.
Cynical of this world, pessimistic on a whole.

Living in the biggest lie.
Calling purgatory my only home.
Living in the biggest lie.
Calling purgatory my only home.