it starts to tear me down
destroyed by what I create
it left the nerve exposed
feels like a lost cause
 [bad word] #39;s all I have left
it's what reduced me to this
turned me against myself
it's still a lost cause

I can't keep doing this to myself
but it's the only way to forget who I am

your disability
kept pushing me away
it went beneath what's so real to me
and threw it all away
I underestimated
the lengths that you would have gone
to deny who you are
you threw it all away

I will keep doing this to myself
'cause it's the only way to forget who I am

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
this failure has to be all mine all mine now
i'll turn my back on myself
if it's my only way out
it can only help me if it hurts

I won't give into, I won't give into...
I won't [bad word] one with your lies

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
this failure has to be all mine all mine now
i'll turn my back on myself
if it's my only way out
i'm too tired to feel anything anyway

WHY!!!...

I will keep doing this to myself
'cause it's the only way to forget who I am

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
this failure has to be all mine all mine now
i'll turn my back on myself
if it's my only way out
i'm too tired to feel anything anyway

I have [bad word] one with your lies