I wish I was..Too dead to cry
The self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
 [bad word] to which I cater 
You don't need to bother 
I don't need to breathe
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I'm done 
I won't let go till it bleeds 
I wish I was 
Too dead to care 
If indeed I cared at all 
Never had a voice to protest 
So you fed me [bad word] to digest 
I wish I had a reason 
My flaws are open seasoned 
For this I gave up trying 
One good time deserves my dying 
I wish I died Instead of lived 
zombie hides my face 
Shelf forgotten with it's memories 
Dire is left with cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother 
I don't need to be 
I'll keep slipping farther 
But once I'm gone 
I'll never live down my disease