Oh mother, sure it makes you cry 
To see your only son like this 
wherever you may be these days 

It has been a year now that i can find no sleep 
No matter what I try I fail 
So I can see precisely how my body fades away 
skeleton to anyone, a symbol of decay 

 [bad word] ) 

I live in [bad word] 
There's no other words for this place 
I cannot tell 
What turned my life into this maze â€" I'm left alone 
On the whole 
derelict is what I am 
fallen soul 
wandering shadow of a man losing his mind 

The ones who are against me, I fear them all around 
What have I done, what is their plan 
Is it just paranoia, I don't know what's going on 
victim of conspiracy or haunted by a phantom? 

 [bad word] ) 

I live in [bad word] 
There's no other words for this place 
I cannot tell 
What turned my life into this maze â€" I'm left alone 
On the whole 
derelict is what I am 
fallen soul 
wandering shadow of a man losing his mind