So when did cigarettes start bothering your hands? I ponder this some nights alone when I undress. And what do you do with those boys I see you with, or better yet, what would I do if you came back? I'd say no, or I hope I could. But I still want you. And what do you think I would do if you came back? Would I stay sober? I think it'd be much worse. Oh, I'd cut my arms off. No regeneration.