"Summer Of Darkness"

I'll be the one last breath before this death
I'll be the final glimpse of [bad word] when there's none left
And if I shame your face, degrade your faith
I'll be the first to hide behind disgrace.
Blood loss - on account of my failing aim.
Treason - at the root of my shameful name.

I found my way to fall.
I never meant to break your heart.
 [bad word] ]
Breathing in this pain (rejecting all I am)
I hear you cry again (Is this my final stand?)
Before I go (Before I lose it all)
You should know (I hate myself for hurting you)

I see the burn of the light from from within my grave
I feel the pain of contradiction despite decay
And if the shadow of doubt will betray this gain
Then put an end to me how while the hope remains.
Blood loss - on account of my failing aim.
Treason - at the root of my shameful name.
 [bad word] 

This is not my life
This is not our life
Every day I die
This is not my life.