Woe, oh

I am in denial, and I am depressed
I will try to bargain with you, then share my anger with you
But I [bad word] the full cycle of mourning
I [bad word] with acceptance
I can't forgive myself
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Everything I touch turns to gold, then to coal
Everything I touch turns [bad word]  then to dust

My clothes are full of holes, hanging off my tired body
 [bad word] so much negativity, my charge drains the life from machinery
But I feel such powerlessness, when I [bad word] with forgiveness
Yet I don't know my own strength, when I destroy everything

Woe, oh

I am in denial, and I am depressed