- It starts when you open your eyes and finelly understand what the future... has in store for you. - And what do you see when you open your eyes? - Well... it's a short life, isn't it? It sometimes I look in the mirror and I see everything... disintegrating faster and faster. And I disappearing, and then I'm just not there. Well, I don't mind that it's a short life or growing old or disappearing. It's the pain that scares me. I don't know why there has to be... so much pain.