One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of [bad word] 
I have [bad word] so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever [bad word] 
One day my mind will retreat
And I'll know God
And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I'll be secure
Like the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries

I have [bad word] so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever [bad word] 
Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous
And torturous
And never done

One day I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid 
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I'll be [bad word] and spacious authentic and grounded and home

I have [bad word] so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever [bad word]