first time i saw you,
my heart skipped a beat
first time i held your hand,
i shaked like a leaf

it didn't have [bad word] to this, if you had just leaved it alone
i never wanted you to see what i've kept inside of me

there is a darkness inside of me, eating on me from within.
i never thought i would be like this, scared to fall down.

i don't see a way
i could [bad word] whole
i hate what i've [bad word] 

there is a darkness inside of me, eating on me from within.
i never thought i would be like this, scared of myself to burst.
the nights grow longer and longer. it's getting darker every day.
this time of year everything's dying.

this is the first day of the rest of my life
yesterday was the last day of a life together with you

first time i saw you my heart skipped a beat.
i think i'm losing all that was me.
first time we held hands i shaked like a leaf.

all this time you wasted on me, i can't give it back

i think i'm losing what you liked about me.
what you liked about me.
first time i saw you 
my heart skipped a beat

and for each day that goes we drift further
i think i'm losing what i used to be
i think i'm losing my personality
and for each day that goes we drift further
you should never see this side of me
i don't want you to see what i turned out to be

this is the last day i will look you in the eyes.
tomorrow won't be the day you will see what i wished to be.

i can still see you on the shore
i keep drifthing further from you
and i watch you as i'm floating