1990, Special Package Edition

I feel such sorrow,
I feel such shame,
I know I won't arrive on time
Before whatever out there is gone.
What can I do, that day is done.

It's just a promise, that I made
I said I'd walk in her parade.
Hot scalding tears I thought would flow.
Still in my heart they'll never show.

That day is done, that day is done,
You know where I've gone
I won't [bad word] back
That day is done.

Well I recall, the time and place
When they announced her precious face.
I thought at once my heart would burst,
Still, every time is like the first.

There was applause when she stepped up.
I wished that I could [bad word] 
I made no sign, I made no sound
I know I must stay underground.

That day is done, that day is done.
You know where I've gone
I won't [bad word] back,
That day is done.

That's why she walks, or so they say.
She always knew just what I needed
Now if she would, just look my way
One time before they proceed.

She sprinkles flowers in the dirt
That's when a thrill [bad word] a hurt,
I know I'll never see her face.
She walks away from my resting place.

That day is done, that day is done.
You know where I've gone
I won't [bad word] back,
That day is done.