You're talking like you're leaving 
You said it's your heart and not my call to 
Make you feel like feeling 
You were so ashamed when I fell on my two feet again 
And God I hated your friends 
I gave you love they could never buy 
Or even try to understand 
The part of me that it came from 
Don't you see that 
 [bad word] 
Sadly I'm smiling through 
All the [bad word] that you took 
And the lies that you told me 
There's nothing that I can do 
With the promise you rendered 
That you'd never remember  [bad word] back for you 
It hurts so much to feel all this pain 
And so I haven't felt lately  [bad word] back for you, back to... 

Did you even notice it when I changed? 
'Cause I could score in your heart, 
But I could never place 
And did I forget to say 
I was so proud of you 
When things were caving in 
And things were tough, I know 
I didn't say that I loved you enough 
But just cause I wasn't saying it 
Doesn't mean that I wasn't thinking it 
 [bad word] 
Sadly I'm smiling through 
All the [bad word] that you took 
And the lies that you told me 
There's nothing that I can do 
With the promise you rendered 
That you'd never remember  [bad word] back for you 
It hurts so much to feel all this pain 
And so I haven't felt lately  [bad word] back for you, back to... 

And my confusion made clear 
 [bad word] 
Sadly I'm smiling through 
All the [bad word] that you took 
And the lies that you told me 
There's nothing that I can do 
With the promise you rendered 
That you'd never remember  [bad word] back for you 
It hurts so much to feel all this pain 
And so I haven't felt lately  [bad word] back for you, back to you