Soror Sui Exidium

(Sister Of [bad word] 

 

"Step onto my thoughts, blades, sharp and long!", -

[While I dared to gaze inside myself

And caught a glimpse of what...]

You perform your own [bad word] 

And I feel the same delight, share the wish to die.

Spiritualize this "Death is a mental state",

Still anguish is his name.

Fill me up with your chill, alone in my emptiness

Greatfully I'll receive your pain!

 

Unworthy to some light I long to embrace your fire.

I'll be the tomb where you spread your seed

And alone with your blossom I shall expire...

 

Leave me alone, can't you leave me alone!

The unclean presence of flesh I just cannot bear...

ballet, well balanced, between pain and forgiveness,

It won't collide, and if I'm [bad word] by, I don't care.

 

I do not care, I do not care...

I do no longer care...

I do not care, I do not care...

I do no longer care...

 

No one will ever recognize my fall,

And if someone accidentially did,

He wouldn't waste a thought,

Would not spare a single thought.

I cannot think of a reason why I should remain,

Only their "faces" might alter,

But my desperation will stay the same...

 

It even increases with time....

 

The barriers of the gates have simply dissolved within my tears.

The Lord of the Dark Side, though shapeless, he waits for me...

"Behold my beloved, I will always belong to thee!"

 

I died for you - for you I'll die,

Together in a realm of the infinite night.

I died for you and for you I will die,

Blessed be those that dwell in your light...

Hand in hand in hand in hand,

So lifeless I can finally understand!

 

Embraced so intimately, beloved Sister of [bad word] 

You are inside of me!

 [bad word] [bad word] soporaeternus