It's when I seemed to lose the only thing I care
I realized and saw it's light in the night
I was beside a sparkling source of life
But sometimes I still see my death behind her smile

I'll be better with no remorse
But can I stop seeing you everywhere? [bad word] away things are getting worse
Can I stop believing you'll be there? 

Lies I used to understand them
All this time you've [bad word] 
How do you feel? I don't believe it's real
It seems to be the sweetest thing when the bitter ends
I'll go crazy for no reason
Because I can't stop that voice inside my head
Anyway your hands are getting cold [bad word] away before I start to burn

Lies I used to understand them
All this time you've [bad word] I know why it was so hard to see me
I wonder if by now I can [bad word] my eyes

So, should I stay? should I tremble and remain?  [bad word] away leaving nothing more to say?