You won't find me condescending at your closed door 
You won't hear how they feel. 
cuz you've been there before 
The holiday's the hardest time to fill in all the blanks 
And you don't need anyone to correct your mistakes 
Wrap yourself up in only math of our world 
Fill up the holes in your full heart with details 
For all the riddles solved and every puzzle [bad word] 
Can't seem to find the pieces to the heart that beats 
You'll master every task but always by the book 
Then log it in your past with risk that you once took 
They left you then, they'll hurt you now 
Can't get too close to you or you will cut them down 
And any fool can play 
I'll raise the stakes with another turn 
We risk, we roll and we burn 
At arms length you never get hit 
There's too much to gamble when you let someone in 
My [bad word] friend I'm spewing 
with anyone more positive 
I just might spill some notable insight 
I didn't think before I purged 
So here I am attempting to unlock the closed door 
I wouldn't break it down 'cause you'd be gone for sure 
You might say something nice of me and send it in a card 
Or under whiskey breath slur kind words at the bar 
its alright for me waiting patiently
While you stay afloat in the tank you built 
We sink, we'll never learn