I torn of all electric lights and sit around reading 
spiderman in the dark
I shut down [bad word] and cellphone won't talk to no
one at least
not while I still bleed my great unfinished novel deos it
it gets me trough in the most pathetic way
but I write only good things about you
and yes I'm sorry I caused you pain

but I go numb because I'm lonely too my dearest [bad word] over with a bottle of expensive liqueur
and says "let's just feel" and so we drink it
and share our sorrows and for a moment
we are real but I go numb
because I'm lonely too no we never made it
baby no we never made it