I must ask why a reason for my melancholy
I mute the cries the longing for your resurgence
And I’d do anything to hold your hand for one last time.
There was a knowing in your eyes the day you walked away.
Can’t help but feel there is a [bad word] you’d rather hide from me

To know you can’t disclose to me
leaves me wading through inadequacy
I would have been by your side for eternity.

I’ll make the most of all that i’m given
& hope that i’ll change the world again.
I wish you a safe journey to heaven,
and a chance you rest in my arms again.

I can’t proceed with the knowledge that you felt
you [bad word] to me for every discrepancy
I’m replaying the whole scenario to find some peace.
You need to know there’s not a thing I wouldn’t do for you.
And now i know you were protecting me from the cold [bad word] 

But why think I can’t hold this weight,
but in lieu of, push me towards hate?
I wanna be by your side and subdue this pain.

I’ll make the most of all that i’m given
& hope that i’ll change the world again.
I wish you a safe journey to heaven,
and a chance you rest in my arms again.

And I’m dwelling, grieving for you again.