I have always been the girl with a smile on my face

Because I don’t know how else to hide my ugly fate

I am short, I am unworthy though I try my best

But then all I get is their hate

 

My phone rings every hour, all I see is your name

And I always press the red button; can’t win this game

I’m aware that you are calling only ‘cus you care

But you won’t understand my pain

 

I will have to lie unless I go die; realize

That there’s not a way I could be living in here happily

So let me be selfish; I just want to sleep

 

I was left alone by the friends I cared about most

They’d all backstab me, to them I was nothing but ugly

So I [bad word] to believe…

 

It’s not only that my friends and my family don’t care

I can’t see the worth of living, so why am I here?

Every day, I live in agony wanting to die

So why can’t I just disappear

 

You say you really care about me; yes, I’m aware

And those smiles, laughs and secrets we managed to share

They are rare; but without them you’d still live happily

It isn’t like you need me here

 

You don’t have to lie, there’s no need to try; I know

Anyway I’ll die so why not die at least with dignity

 ‘Cus honestly, no one gives a [bad word] about me

 

I’m not beautiful, I’m a worthless troll; you’re gonna

Find a better girl and accept the tragedy of my life

So let’s say our farewells here…

 

I can no longer wear the smile that you fell for

Because the songs I sing are not pretty anymore

There’s no meaning to my life

So I can only die

 

I will have to lie unless I go die; realize

That there’s not a way I could be living in here happily

So let me be selfish; I just want to sleep

 

I was left alone by the friends I cared about most

They’d all backstab me, to them I was nothing but ugly

(Yes I remember…)

 

That day that I took a pill and cried; but you

Came to save my life so please let me deeply apologize

So let me sleep and be free

I rest without misery

brand new life awaits…

Then maybe we will meet… again.