the phone calls
 always left me unsure
 they'd never say things of their own accord
 I am preoccupied
 I can't get them out of my mind
 they are terrified

 and if you said jump in the river I would
 because it would probably be a good idea
 you're not supposed to be here at all
 it's all been a gorgeous mistake
 sick one or clean one
 the best one
 that God ever made

 when I kissed you
 you didn't mind
 I thought I tasted of too many cigarettes
 but you tasted of wine
 and I'm not going to change my mind
 just because of what they said
 the worm has laid eggs in their hearts
 but not in my head

  [bad word] 

 there's been days like t
and i liked it all
 like the times we did it so hard
 there was blood of the wall

 and if you said jump in the river I would
 because it would probably be a good idea