if this is [bad word]  i thought then, what will i think
will i stay but rather i would get away
i'm scared that i won't find a thing
and afraid that i'll turn out to be alone, but i

i have to learn, have to try, have to [bad word] i have to cry
have to see, have to know that i can be myself, yeah

and if i could i would stay
and if they're not, not in my way
i'll stare here in the distance
but i'll grow up to be just like you, yeah
i'll grow up to be just like you, yeah

i see it all i'm sure but
do i know what's right
i thought i knew but it turns out the other way
i am scared that i won't find a thing
and afraid that i'll turn out to be alone, but i

i have to learn, have to try, have to [bad word] i have to cry
i have to see, have to know that i can be myself

and if i could i would stay
and if they're not not in my way
i'll stare here in the distance
but i'll grow up to be just like you, yeah
i'll grow up to be just like you

i want to tell you
why would i try to
you are all that i can see now
why would i try to

and i want to tell you
why would i try to
you are all i can see now
i know i'll try to

i have to learn, have to try, have to [bad word] i have to cry
i have to see, have to know that i can be myself

but if i could, yeah, i would stay
and if they're not, not in my way
i'll stare here in the distance
but i'll grow up to be just like you, yeah
i'll grow up to be just like you