I an amnesiac or a haemophilliac 
Or is this a heart attack? 
That burns the holes in these lips 
That shelters and stings 
That blankets then burns 
That hurts and heals 
To [bad word]  to sadness 
To the the 
I devote 
Of an increase in heartblood 
To varnish and veneer 
Against their words that smear and snarl 
 [bad word] 
I instigate 
I must not fake 
The this then why if how and 
Being seeing feeling learning 
Crying, silenced soul of tears and fears that fall to stand 
That fall to stand 
And how I remember 
And how I wish to forget 
And how I wish to forget 
And how I wish to forget 
Shopping in the real world 
It could be you 
It could be you 
What makes you different makes you beautiful 
And what you want is what you get, get, get 
As you suck in the headlights 
Of Lithium, Prozac, Viagra, Zispin, Temazepam 
Diazepam, Animal nitrate, Valium, Cocaine, Propane 
Novocaine, Methadone metronomes to absolve your sins 
Speak on Oprah, Springer, Lake, Kilroy 
The time the place 
This time the place 
It'll be okay 
It'll be safe 
So find yourself another couch babe 
And you'll get through 
So I bottle your mind 
With verbs that find 
Their place in nouns 
Of laced narcotic 
Underground 
Character disdenied and undesigned 
Of soul declined 
I bottle your mind 
 [bad word] 
The pain, the memory, the dawning 
Into now 
So know and how I desecrate to educate 
To emancipate the chains 
The eyes that split my vision 
The voices that stammered my tongue 
Yet now I speak 
Yet now I speak 
In this war of attrition 
This heartraged mission 
This restricted code of breaking 
Breaking recognition 
I an amnesiac or a haemophilliac 
Or is this a heart attack?