When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
When I pretend to forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just 'cause I know I can
But I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay
I'm just trying to fill the [bad word] I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be
So I'm lying away from you

No, no turning back now
I want to be closed inside
So let me go
No, no turning back now
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone
No turning back now
Than anywhere on my own
'Cause I can't see
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you
Is me

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who it ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was [bad word] in
And now you think this person really is me and
I'm trying to fill the [bad word] The more I push the more I'm pulling away
'Cause I'm lying my way from you

No, no turning back now
I want to be closed inside
So let me go
No, no turning back now
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone
No turning back now
Than anywhere on my own
'Cause I can't see
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me

This isn't what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have [bad word] from me
Like this
This isn't what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have [bad word] from me
Like this
This isn't what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have [bad word] from me
Like this
This isn't what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have [bad word] from me
Like this

You
No turning back now
I want to be closed inside
So let me go
No, no turning back now
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone
No turning back now
Than anywhere on my own
'Cause I can't see
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me