This is the first day of my last days

I built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down
Real far.
No need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away
I put my faith in god and my [bad word] in you
Now there's nothing more [bad word] up i could do

Wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word] Wish there was something real in this world full of you

I'm the one without a soul i'm the one with this big [bad word] hole
No new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to [bad word] Gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist [bad word] Don't think you're having all the fun
You know me i hate everyone

Wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word] Wish there was something real in this world full of you

I want to but i can't turn back
But i want to