now I can take this, everything I know 
realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be 
I can never change anything i've done 
because it's the only thing I have left 

blame myself again for what I didn't do 
never even knew it [bad word] from me 
it changed the way I felt, the worst is yet [bad word] 
because I have gone too far now 

nobody 
changed my mind 
and it leads me to a new disease 
somebody 
let it die 
but it still [bad word] a new disease 

is this all worth what this has done to me 
watered down my senses and turned them on me 
 [bad word] morality and everything I know 
if I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope 
impersonate myself for what I used to be 
denial is all that's left now 

nobody 
changed my mind 
and it leads me to a new disease 
somebody 
let it die 
but it still [bad word] a new disease 

seething in my head 
I'm suffering instead 
I can't remember why 
this meant so much to me 

doubt 
did I ever want this? 
it's all I could've been, it's all I would've been 
doubt 
did I ever want this? 
it's all i've ever been, it's all I'll ever be 

seething in my head 
I'm suffering instead 
I can't remember why 
this meant so much to me 

nobody 
changed my mind 
and it leads me to a new disease 
somebody 
let it die 
but it still [bad word] a new disease