[bad word] doxxa

I been spending all this money cuz I might not see the sun again,
I've been smokin [bad word]  in the slums, have [bad word] when
I step on the scene, I ain't mean boy I just ain't your friend,
You been off the [bad word]  off some [bad word] that I don't [bad word] 

I been on my [bad word]  that's why these women on my [bad word] 
I ain't even got a job, I get some money make it flip,
See [bad word] like a [bad word]  just chasing dreams you'll never get,
And, I dont need to dream, because to me my dreams are dead

I can only make it happen, I ain't happy in the end,
Just a little satisfaction, if that's all that I can get
See me dressed in my own fashion, I don't have to [bad word] with trends,
It's OmenXIII the assassin steady clashin til the end.

Then I'm back into the shadows where they cannot seem to see,
See to me my life's a battle and I'll have to face defeat.
But until that [bad word] happens I'll keep rappin on these beats,
And I'm reppin' 10 black nails til OMENXIII R.I.P.

 [bad word] i Started doin me, Because I lost my will to live,
But I can't give into the pain because the pain is not my friend.
But it helps me feel alive, so I respect for what it is,
And I tried to keep it cool, but now my patience wearing thin.

My mind is in constant motion,
Thoughts created by the slightest notion.
I'm screaming out for hope and,
The same thoughts strangle til I'm choking.