this is the first day of my last days
i built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down real far
no need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away
i put my faith in god and my [bad word] in you
now there's nothing more [bad word] up i could do
wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word] 
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i'm the one without a soul i'm the one with this big [bad word] hole
no new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to [bad word] 
gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck first [bad word] 
don't think you're having all the fun
you know me i hate everyone
wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word] 
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to