Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me [bad word] loved me
Yes, I learned a while ago that kind of thing it never happens for me,
And so I go around and just pretend love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the [bad word] deep
Lord know its killing me
 [bad word] ]
So I put on my make up put a smile on my face
And if anyone ask me everything is ok
I'm laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
Cuz I'm dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my face...on my face
Singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa

Sometimes I sit at home by the phone
Hopin he might call me but he dont call me
But then I realize [bad word] [bad word] arent for girls like me not like me,
And so I go around with my head up like it aint no thing
And when the boys around with all my friends I'm into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the [bad word] deep
Lord knows its killing me
 [bad word] ]
So I put on my make up put a smile on my face
And if anyone ask me everything is ok
I'm laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
Cuz I'm dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my face...on my face oooh

It's not easy (thing to do)
Sometimes it's hard to (face the [bad word] 
It's not the life that I would choose
But what else can I do if he dont love me no if he dont want me
I'm not about to sit around let myself go (gooooo)
 [bad word] ]
So I put on my make up put a smile on my face
And if anyone ask me everything is ok
I'm laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
Cuz I'm dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my face...on my face
Singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la

la, la la la

la, la la la

la la, la la la
Laaaa