Layin' awake again and I don't know what's happening
     
I'm setting sail on unknown seas

and I'm haunted by insecurities, oh no

I'm standing on the edge of dream
                           
Colliding with the light of this real life scene

And I don't feel a thing until the [bad word] 

And when it's all said and done would I just cut [bad word] 

Sometimes I'm so numb I don't know

If it happened tonight would I stand and fight

or would I just let go

Whatcha gonna do when it's on you boy

Whatcha gonna say when it's no no more

Whatcha really gonna do when it's all through boy

Whatcha gonna say when it's over now

Maybe it's the time of the year
                 
but I don't feel my soul shine

Locked up inside and floating on the cheap wine
  
But there's a smell in the air
and I swear something's there

Blowing in on a California night

So if it's all gone and I can't go on

Well I'm sure as [bad word] not ready to die