remembering how it used to feel and what it feels like now 
nothing much has changed 
i lack feeling, i lack purpose 
i’m scared things will stay the same 
i fear that things will always stay the same 
i’m living every day with my emotions drawing blanks 
keeping me rooted in routine is the only way i tolerate 
i’ve got nothing left to offer and nothing more to gain 
i’m left to disintegrate 
disintegrate 
i can’t cope with the ambiguity of finding my purpose 
and i don’t know if i even have one at all 
i want to find more to care about in my life, and what it feels like 
sensing nothing at all towards the things that happen to me 
i see the water moving at my feet 
look through the surface to what’s moving underneath 
at different angles i’m the only thing i see 
the flow of it all continues on all around me 
when i gaze into my future’s probability 
my sights are too focused on keeping my mind at ease 
my mind constantly filled with apathy 
not knowing what to do about all my deficiencies 
i have never had the feeling that i was placed here for a reason 
i’ve been separating from myself 
the long drive through changing seasons 
i’ve taken short cuts and they’ve brought me no closer to home 
being told it’s the only way to go, wandering alone 
and i know without a doubt 
i’ll see better things taking the scenic route 
and I know without a doubt 
i'll see better things in myself 
and I know without a doubt 
i'll see better things taking the scenic route