Fantasies, misery came together
in the world of guilt and pain
neverending game
Do not reject me, I was better of without
But in my agonized existence I needed to be free
 [bad word] 
Free my mind, free my soul
I do not need to feel no more
Feel no more, I'm better off this way
Alone, far from the past and its [bad word] face
I still feel the disgust and pain
Let me be free
 [bad word] 
This is my life today, this is the way it went out of control
I cannot do without these glorifying means, my remedy
These amazing illusions, fantasies
 [bad word] 
Fanatsy, not for me, like another mirror of reality
Another point of view
Don't disbelieve me, I really tried to do without
But with sadness as [bad word] it's hard to do
Without the seduction, to [bad word] someone I'm not
But in this beautiful deception I'll [bad word] the night
Another day, another week, I'll [bad word] time

-Choir-
Colors seem to flow, they seem [bad word] alive
While the sound of life is stronger than before
It's more than a dream, this is so real
I swim and fly, I never feel more than I need, than I fear
I roam, I cry, I am paralyzed
I can fight the world!
The sense of time is not important now
Just like the past, just like right now
There's no illusion that this is for real!
 [bad word] 
Observe me, control me
Tell me what is best, what's good
Tell me how it worked for you
Tell me how to find myself, find resepct, find the strength
Facing life so pure and clean, mean and hard
All these words, can't cure nor heal