It scares me to death to think of what I have [bad word]  and what a wandering soul I have [bad word]  If I followed the beaten path instead of marching my way through my own. I feel so lost in this world like I made the same mistake one thousand times. I don’t want to be a drone, a slave to the system that's caught so many others in its trap. I can only hope to look back and see a life fulfilled. Times of triumph, love [bad word]  But it’s better to have lived, then to have never spent a day alive. But will these choices [bad word] back to haunt me in my dreams? This self loathing can only get me so far.