Flags and Footprints

I'm looking for a reason why I see no shooting stars tonight
Just a sign that everything's alright to quiet me, to quiet me
Maybe all I hoped was wrong maybe all I dreamed is gone
Maybe I was stupid all along for trying it, for trying it

But I believed in what you said
I [bad word] in your summer
Now the leaves are turning red
And soon they'll all [bad word] down
How can I go on
If hope is what keeps me alive
And I'm so uncertain

It seems the more I look for you the more I fail to find the [bad word] Maybe I'm affecting what I view with heavy veils and fairytales
Maybe my research was sound but maybe I just fooled around
All flags and footprints but nothing further down to find you, to find you

But i believed in what you said
I [bad word] in your summer
Now the leaves are turning red
And soon they'll all [bad word] down
How can I go on
If hope is what keeps me alive
And I'm so uncertain

I guess I learned the hard way or did I waste my time
I never met you half way but I crossed that line

And I believed in what you said
I [bad word] in your summer
Now the leaves are turning red
And soon they'll all [bad word] down
How can I go on
If hope is what keeps me alive
Maybe someday I'll know why