I lie here alone and wonder why
That [bad word] alive, just before I have to hide.

[Pre [bad word] 
Because I believe I'm losing my nerve
But could I ever do better than this

 [bad word] 
Because all I ever wanted was a place to call my home
To shelter me when I am there and to miss me when I'm gone
All I ever wanted was a place to call my own
Where stars will dance and sun still shines and the storms feel free to roam

I listen if only for a while
But I can't decide if I'm aware that I'm on trial

[Pre [bad word] 

[2nd [bad word] 

[Bridge]
If there's a way to a remedy then lead me straight to it
If there's a path or a door I missed , then show me now, show me this

 [bad word] 

Feel free when I am gone