I don't feel like me
Whatever that's suppose to be
I’ve crossed lines I never thought I cross
My only retreat is falling asleep
While I lay awake every night of the week
And think about how much worse it's [bad word] 
I don't feel like me
Whoever that's suppose to be
I’m a different person every [bad word] home
How can I be so lonely 
When you're in a room right next to me
Why has it been like this my whole life

I need to say it I need more
I need the feeling that I had before
I get back and started on this old routine again
Always upstream always against the grain

Nothing will ever change
Ever change