This is my first confession
I've learned to hate myself
Lost in this dark obsession
This is my private [bad word] 
There's no [bad word] to save me
There's no one left who cares
Cast out, cast off and rape me
I call but no one's there

Every day I play the victim
Brought down by [bad word] I've fallen out of favor
I'm cursed by locality

I feel it getting worse now
I'm afraid of what I see
The world has let me down
Look what it's done to me

This is my last confession
I hate what I've [bad word] Can't fight off this infection
I the only one?

This is my lone obsession
Try so hard to make it hurt less
Save myself from self-deception
I always fail, because I'm worthless