Last year was a better place, we thought we were brothers. This year though, is different, we ve found we can t [bad word] one friend from another, one man from the next; we re left with our shadows, we re left with lies regret and hope, all of the things that build us up that make us hurt. Dear god If you re there please show yourself so we can breathe and know that we re okay, that we are not just  friends we don t know, friends that we miss, friends that will never grow up from kids. 
I wish I could take back all that I ve said, I wish I could take back all that I've done but I know I can t, what s now s not then, and there s no point in having best friends. What we have will [bad word] back, so we re left with this: people that we think we love, it s them we cannot [bad word]  It s them who will hurt us, them who will leave us searching and praying for things left in last year